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Mardha dewi puspa

Remember the day when we start know each other,remember the day when we start to like each other,Remember the day when we are laugh together, that day always be my good day :) 

Yes, we broke up.

Thanks for anything , it will be nice if we could back together someday.

You so easy forget everything :) 

You never greet me again .

You never reply my text .

Until i find myself too much loving you.

And i say to myself ,i think it's enough

you have your own life now :)

Someday you will ask about me.

someday...

Thanks mardha

Leadership

Last saturday i was chill with one of my best friend taufiq ristanto the leader of bombnitro and wacky band.

I Stop in a place called Tugu , with a pack of marlboro that night, We talk about our band, i talk about my journey, he talk about his journey too . we talk about the leadership, yes i'm the leader in my band , so he was. 

Saya selalu belajar apapun dari apapun yang saya lihat, tapi kali ini saya benar-benar belajar bagaimana cara direspect orang and have some charisma , sebelumnya saya melakukan hal-hal bodoh dengan marah-marah dengan rekan tim band saya sendiri, saya juga pernah memiliki rekan satu band yang tidak memiliki rasa solidaritas sama sekali . Sekarang saya benar-benar sadar main band itu bukan hanya untuk famous, now i find that i create i band it's for my heart,it's for the partner that always make ma laugh,make me feel comfortable in this group. Saya sadar cara agar orang-orang mehargai kita adalah, you have to respect 'em first , yes, kamu harus menghargainya lebih dulu, except you people like bill gates mereka akan langsung menghargai kamu.

Orang-orang juga pernah menganggap saya remeh,menganggap saya nggak bisa apa-apa, now i will talk not with my skill not with my mouth :) 

Anyway thanks for @tovxr i learn many things from you ! 

Some weird mindset

This is 9:57 pm when i start write this post on my blog. 

Yes,some weird mindset i want to write here. It's been a long time some question is ganging inside my head, you know everybody always look at us when we do a bad thing,and hate us directly , how about the opposite? when we do a good thing everybody accept it but,maybe tommorow or more longer that good thing will fade away like there's nothing happen. So what i wanna tell in this post is, why some kind people always see us from our lack, why they don't just see us from our excess. the quick example is the report school, why the parents always see the report from the bad score first , try see the good score it will be kind i think. Then they blame their son for that bad score , i mean why they do that? Messed up,Fucked up,yes i think that is really fucking wrong mindset. and weird mindset. 

Cross my old life

Crossing my old life

I Watching everybody was change,every single thing in this whole life. This evening, i just look back to my old life, i tought i still a little kid maybe 2 or 3 years ago, now i'm here standing right here,this evening i try to back to my past.. i go to my junior highschool, i go to my ex-house, i go to the place that really meaningfull for me.  the sky was so black, i stare the sky, at that point i realize that i'm really miss my old life. One time, i woke up in the morning, i think i was in my ex-house. and my phone was ringing cause my girlfriend is calling i always love that part :) , then my mom woke me up cause i'm gonna go to school,i see my ex-girlfriend at school i grab her hand so tight, for real, i miss when i go home with public transportation called "AMG." And "ABB" haha. 

But then i'm come to realize that i've been change, every single thing in my life was changing, now i live at new house,then nobody call me when the morning was come, my phone doesn't ringing in the morning, i watching sky from my room,i realize that this is not my old chamber, this is not my old house, my new school, my new life , I wish i could be back at least 4 years ago, i miss the day when somebody grab my hand so tight and say "i love you." i miss the day when band is not about fight or something like shit, i miss the day when everybody respect me. 

I Wish that day could be happen again.